What if.

What if you break my trust

What if you are not as you seem

What if everything I think 

Is only a vivid dream 

What if we go backward

Instead of going ahead

What if you are an illusion

That's messing with my head

What if you see through me

And see through my smile

What if you don't get it

And it takes too long a while

What if you believe me

When I tell you night is day

And people call you mad

And think you have lost your way 

What if I distort reality 

And make it still look real

Would you still be in my world

Or would it not be ideal

What if I make no sense one day

And you start to regret

Would you stay for who I was

Or would you just forget 

Confusion

There is soooo much confusion in my head. I really really need to talk to her. I don't know how it is that people are so calm. I'm screaming inside. Every time I see her on whatsapp. I let out a silent scream. I want to know why on earth she can't reply if I msg. Why can't I just give her a call. Expletives that I don't otherwise say come in my mind. Things I never say. I don't know who the anger is directed to. I just need to understand. I need someone to explain to me what on earth happened. How is it that she simply disappeared from the face of the earth. That shouldn't happen to anyone. I mean one fine day she is just GONE. Why won't anyone explain how that's even possible? She doesn't even come in my dream anymore. If only we knew. We would make and break everything to prevent this from happening. Why do we always take things for granted? Why do we think we have time?

We don't. This moment right now. This moment is all we have. Whatever it is you have to do, do it now. Tomorrow might not come. For you or someone else. What if all you have is today?